October 2008
1 post
my luck
I hope you never stop saying “I love you” when you are drunk. I love that even if everything you are thinking is nonsense, that you still think about that when you look at me. I hope I am always happy when you are gone. Not gone away, but simply out, like today, enjoying yourself. I hope I never lose the confidence I have that when you come back you’ll be happy to be here, with me, again. I...
August 2008
18 posts
So.....
I guess I went a little nuts with the photos. I apologize to the 6 or 7 people who still “follow” me. I woke up this morning and decided I was inspired to blog. Then I realized I wanted to recap. It seems that I’ve come full circle. I’ve handled the big D that I never thought I would have to handle. I’ve put myself back “out there” in every sense of...
I am a Spider Killer
Had to reblog because I aspire to have the courage one day to follow in your “flop steps”!!
Kill me a few!!!
whiskeycoat:
i kill spiders. black widows, specifically. it began a few weeks ago when i was outside on the front patio at night. i saw a spider hanging upside down in a web. i was far away but something made me think, ‘maybe its a black widow’. i went closer and could...
vigilance
bendickinson:
the moment at which being present is most painful is the moment at which being present is most powerful
Ben….. You are on fire lately. I love it.
July 2008
1 post
the troops
brooklet14:
I sit here in my comfortable office and complain…about it being a Monday, about how things at my company are really shaky, about how my personal life is in a weird place…
I caught a blip of the news yesterday, I wasn’t actively looking for it, I just happened upon some headlines when I briefly got online yesterday. One of the headlines was about 9 soldiers killed in Afghanistan, I...
June 2008
12 posts
Are we having fun yet?
Monday was Busch Gardens “Europe” day. It was still 100 degrees. We were aiming for the water park, but ended up in the wrong parking lot, and so we stayed the day. It is huge. I mean it covers a massive amount of ground. 5 coasters conquered, a few of them multiple times. Lots of walking, lots of sweat, lots of water, a little heat exhaustion, not many lines, and a ton of fun. I hit the...
I was promised a hot tub.
Aside from the initial annoyance based on the simple advertisement vs. reality discrepancy, I didn’t miss the hot tub anyway. The house was what I would call a cottage. It was a little bigger than my tiny apartment, but not very big at all. Just enough for the 2 of us, and the bugs/spiders that I’m sure were there only to creep me out enough so that I wouldn’t sit still for very long in the...
"Attitude is Everything 101"
Whatever you choose to be, you will be. This isn’t to say that every now and then, you won’t be confused. Learning about yourself is harder than any scholarly subject. You have to force yourself to believe that the text is interesting enough to read and then put together consistent presentations in front of the class until you’ve taught everyone. The good news is, you can use props if you want...
DC!!!
I remember reading someone’s blog entries (biteofpythias) about DC. I was there last Saturday. It’s everything I read and more. We didn’t drive, we took the Metro. The “coolness” of the sites outweighed even the over 100 degree heat and I didn’t even see ¼ of them. I’ll go again, and realize now what I’m looking forward to.
What happened?
I closed my eyes and when I opened them again, I was here. I wonder about the distance between the 2 points even as I’m staring at them both. I recognize the then and the now of it even as I’m confused about the when. Maybe I’m just lucky.
It's been awhile....
Vacation was from Friday 6/6 to Monday 6/16. I’m back. I didn’t have access, but I had a lot to say over the course of the space between those dates. I’ll try and start at the beginning. Bear with me. I’m happy to be home, but had the best vacation of my life so far!!
“After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining...”
– (via snickerdoodle)
me: just exactly truthful
“Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth.”
– Thoreau no explanation needed
“The truth is “hate speech” only to those who have something to hide.”
– Michael Rivero -me: This is more like it.
“We do not err because truth is difficult to see. It is visible at a glance. We...”
– Alexander Solzhenitsyn -me…. Is this what makes me so different from others?
i wonder.....
N…. Are you home? Surely you’ll update us…… right? Amanda…. Are you feeling better about your treatment? You’ll still write….. right? -S…. Your journey “home”, is your path clear? You woudn’t forget me….. right? Joel…. Your consistent ability to ask questions of yourself and demand answers. I’m in awe and...
May 2008
15 posts
If you tempt me enough, I will destroy my life,...
ellebelle: Reading this makes my heart race. So fun. Me….. This is pure excitement.
Catch up.....
I’m trying to play catch up on people’s lives….. thru blogs, online journals, etc. It’s not the same as speaking to someone, but makes me feel like I am not abandoning them. If you are someone I haven’t talked to in awhile, I miss you, I promise. I’m having fun. Love, me
“…I think that playing golf during the war just sends the wrong...”
– Our poor excuse for a commander in chief….. Me: you’ve gotta be kidding me
"You go sell furniture and I'll eat the chicken"
I read it on the screen. The announcer’s voices in closed captions. The Red Sox are playing. They keep volleying the lead. I don’t even know if they won or not. It isn’t important. The “cosmic omelet” I had for breakfast followed by the unveiling of the coolest toy store ever, located right here in my home town, was all done before packing for Boston. Even the...
“Wait, what am i doing?”
– a human being, pausing for a moment before carrying out another empty ritual in his nervous existence. (via bendickinson) me: i do this at least 4 times/day
Just because it's all true......
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less...
“Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time...”
– Gavin Rossdale, “Love Remains the Same” me: exactly
“You stay up doing origami until 1am without realizing I was staring at your...”
– One Sentence archive - story #2100 (via aja) me: There you have it folks….. another lonely marriage with blinders on. Never again.
“If you’re honest - trying to help people makes you confront the darkness in...”
– I wish I could figure out who to credit this to. I love it. My thanks to Joel, for bringing it to my attention.
I'm....
Grateful because while he may think he does, he doesn’t need her to respond to his texts anymore. It’s better she doesn’t. Comforted because my cats are all on the couch, cuddly and close. They might even need me. Touched because of the depths of what he shared without intending to. I overlooked the asshole part. Surprised because I cried while I watched the end of...
Night, flowers, regrets.
ganderthoughts: A quiet Friday night. I sat on the couch and sent her a text. No reply. I haven’t talked to her in more than a week. I think it’s the first time since we met 7 years ago. Our paths diverge more and more. Our bizarre relationship slowly adapts to the incoming divorce. Slowly making sense. It looks normal. And it’s as sad as it can get. Does she think about me? Does it matter? I...
“Many people think they are thinking when they are merely rearranging their...”
– William James (via carolynannahall) I concur
April 2008
15 posts
I've spent hours on this.... →
So I get to feed my obsession for words and those in need all at the same time?
from the swing perspective
Laundry is done at the “clubhouse” in my apartment complex. Once I put it in, if it’s nice out, I like to wander around outside. There is a small playground area that includes 2 swings. I like swinging in the dark by myself……. ground sky ground sky ground sky That pattern is what you see if you are using the pushing motion your entire body creates in order to be...
“i saw a nightmare in slow motion tonight. a man so consumed by desire it has...”
– HG’s DS journal 10/16/07 Me: I saved it on my desktop “Joel’s chatzy masterpiece”. I just kept reading it. I’m still reading it.